Hi, Vickie. I know you do feel betrayed and your attitude is shitty but you have every right to feel this way. My husband has basically suffered the same as your dad and just now had yet another PET and found cancer in nasopharynx -- it just seems so unfair sometimes! You encourage your loved one to do the best they can under terrible circumstances and then they get knocked down another notch. However, things do get better. We were looking at the PEG for at least a year and it was removed a month ago. Now, my husband has had radical neck dissection and is undergoing additional rad but can eat, if only very smooth things, so he feels like he's made progress. Your dad is depressed and it is hard for him to overcome that with everything going on in his life. I'll pray for you and your family to find additional strength. MIllie