Wow... I don't even know what to say except to agree with you that cancer sucks and that we are here for you anytime you need to vent, cry, share, ask questions, whatever.
Thanks for being so honest and vulnerable with us... I will pray that God gives you strength, endurance and comfort -- and that you can find that something you need to lift you out of the rough waters that make you feel like you are drowning...
Pulling for you and your family,
Eric