Anita.....What Powerlifter said was right on the money.....the first year out from treatment I spent a LOT of time at the Doctors office. I watched my mouth so closely that half the time I imagined something HAD to be wrong. Then, like Powerlifter, my bone started protruding from my gums.....I thought cancer for sure; my bones in my jaw were dying because of cancer. The worst possible thing and it was happening to me. Then during a normal CT scan there was a "spot" on my lung. Oh boy, I thought I was a gonner for sure this time. The cancer has surely spread. Headache? Brain tumor, of course. What else could it be? Slowly I began to realize that so many things besides cancer can go wrong with our bodies that until you hear you have a recurrence or the word CANCER don't even think about it. A 'spot' on the lung for instance can be so many different things; my spot was walking pneumonia. The headache was.....well, just a headache. As time passes this will get much easier for you, really it will. Right now you're still feeling scared and vunerable -- this too shall pass. Like Gary says: One day at a time. And really, that is the best we can all hope for....one day at a time. You'll have plenty of time to worry AFTER a cancer diagnoses, no sense starting one second before. Plus, there is a very very good chance you'll never have to worry again. Sincerely, Donna