Today is Sunday and i can see the light at the end of the tunnel! Monday and Tuesday, one treatment Monday and two on Tuesday...I just need a little more strength to see the end of this! I never thought this would be the fight of my life...Im a strong person, I so saw myself getting through this, with no big problems at all. I could handle this easily. Well, Im here to say, this kicked my butt! I cant eat, I cant drink, this damn slimey spit, the sore in my mouth is driving me nuts, the burn on the back of my neck (looks like a bullet hole) NO ENERGY at all, i feel like im 100 yrs. old instead of 46... my stomach tube is making me sore.(how long does that take to heal?) " Im sick of being sick " I want my life back and i want to feel good again, I want to go back to my boring ass job! I want to eat and drink, i want to swallow without gagging...Im beginning to think the Radiation was the easy part, and i just thought this was hard...haha, Im just skimmy the surface here, the healing of the body and soul and mind...this is going to be the real fight of my life, right? How long will this take? Is that the million dollar question? This is where, taking one day at a time...comes to life!!!
