Dear Cindy,
It is totally normal for both you and Harry to be feeling this way! My husband Ron is now 5 1/2 months post tx and he goes to see his doctors every 2 months. The first checkup was so scary because you're right, you just don't know if the cancer is gone or not!
For us, we are now able to "sort of" forget about the cancer and move on with our new life, until the day of next doctors appt. On that day we are both very nervous and anxious. I don't think you would be human if you didn't feel that way. Knock on wood...so far so good for us! I will pray for the same good news for you and Harry.
Take care,
Shelley