I'm trying hard to calm down. Just reading your post made me cry.

I have to run in the other room just to cry so my father and daughter can't see me.

I just don't know how to calm down. I know this is sooo stupid of me and believe it or not, i'm usually a toughy.

I think i'm frightened of the unknown and some stuff I read here scares the hell outta me

Age 55, Right side throat with ear pain. Squamous cell carcinoma of the supraglottis with cervical neck metastasis. Stage IV disease with a T3, N2, MX

March 2008, diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Folicular Lymphoma

Now taking Thyroid pills for side effects of Rad Treatments

And Life Goes On...