To me it was no big deal initially. Getting fitted was a little uncomfortable because they didn't tell me enough about the process.

After 15 or so treatments I absolutely hated it and the whole process of IMRT. I had to learn not to focus on it. I counted the seconds the IMRT was on a certain area or closed my eyes and recited songs or prayers in my head. I knew this was a necessary step to fight this battle, so not doing it wasn't an option.

I kept it for a souvenier, my son who is 7 puts it on from time to time to and tries to scare me. If he only knew how much I dislike it because of what it represents, but I can't bring myself to throw it out.

Tim