So far everything sounds normal. My surgeon is raved about by my other doctors, but his manner towards me puts me on edge. He's very cocksure. Yes, I am being treated a major cancer facility. He's the last step since I'm healing up after radiation. The whole voice box bit is probably because the tumor was located originally on my surpaglottis. I'm crossing my fingers that I am officially cancer free and all I need done is this last step to confirm it.

This is why I'm concerned about the pain. I really don't want to be away from my family for five days in the hospital in total pain. There won't be anybody to advocate for me, since we live an hour and a half away and it's best my husband take care of my children. Yes, Ssax, the cancer center you listed is where I'm being treated at.

I know it seems like I'm a whiner. I made it through radiation and chemo. I need to buck up my courage, think positive and make it through this. You all have gone through far more than I have. I'm going to cross my fingers and hope that all goes according to plan and I don't end up in too much pain or permanent loss here.

Afterall, I'm almost done with this cancer stuff. Since my entire year has been wrapped around it, I'm due for a break where I'm on the mend and not worrying about cancer.

Cross your fingers for me, folks. Here's hoping that I'm all clear and the surgery goes smoothly.

Jen