Hi thanks for you messages girlfriends This is tough and gives me a different pespective about this damned waiting game.I find myself touching and feeling this intruder every few minutes,its absolutely obsessive.sometimes i think it is smaller,sometimes bigger,sometimes i feel confident it is nothing serious,then it feels overwhelmingly terrifying.Its not like a lump,its like a sausage under the skin across my collar bone ,heading up towards my ear,and there definately isnt one the other side,sometimes it hurts and sometimes it doesnt and my neck is quite swollen,and my spirits are flagging daily.Watching the video might not have been the best idea,but at least i now feel as if i am grieving as it made me cry a lot and every picture of Rob is doing the same.
But i am still waiting for the appointment as those of you who live in the UK know the country has ground to a halt because of the postal strike!So i am waitng for a phone call hopefully

thanks again for letting me get my feelings on paper and your support which is priceless.