Hello Liz,
I can't even think of what to write to you to help ease your mind. You haven't stopped in months, trying to be normal--whatever the hell that means these days, and you've been fighting a nasty bug and incredible heartbreak!
I'm trying to recall all of your great advice that you have shared with others to help ease your worries...but all I can think is, "When is Liz going to be given a break?!" I wish I could help you somehow, wish I could come and visit with you to help you unburden your heart some. Talking to a friend sometimes helps. I know in my case that really didn't work for me, finding you and the rest of our family here is what helped me most. I know how much you mean to all of us, so....let it out!
Before I leave I have to tell you that I smirked when I read the beginning of your post, I can only imagine what the newest members think when they read about "...Helen coming down from her tree..."
Love,
Donna