Dear D3, this is the best place in the world to "not make sense" As a caregiver, you will be called upon to dip into a reservoir of strength you didn't know you had. You are going to be your family's "main frame" for awhile. Please don't let yourself feel alone, lots of us here will listen,answer questions, hug and try to help. Wishing you the best. Amy in the Ozarks