My husband had a canker sore in January that wouldn't go away. I couldn't believe he was going to the Dr. for a canker sore. Thank goodness he did. When the biopsy came back it showed to be cancer. I feel like I have been in a cloud ever since. My husband had surgery on Feb. 27. They removed 6 teeth, part of his mandibule, and 50 lymph nodes. The pathology showed it to be in only 2 lymph nodes and not in the bone. So we were happy to find that out. The surgeon was saying radiation and chemo both. The chemo and radiation drs. thought just radiation. He is getting 30 treatments and have had 7 of those so far. Now my husband is wondering why it was decided not to chemo. I think the surgeon is just more agrressive and tells it more like gloom and doom. Others have told me surgeons are more like that. Has anyone else thought that about their team of drs? We haven't met with the surgeon since this was decided but my husband wants to ask him what changed his mind.
My emotions have been a roller coaster. My husband has always been a "Macho Man" and for him not to be able to do some of the things he has always done around the house and with our three daughters sometimes just really gets me. Then other times it seems like he is feeling really fine and it's almost like the cancer isn't even there. He has been really positive with everything so far and this weekend he was really quiet and hardly ate anything. Said his tongue and throat were hurting. I'm thinking it has only been 7 treatments and already it's affecting him. I wish I could just stick my head in the sand and I don't want to feel that way because he's the one with the cancer, not me.
I'm sure I'm just rambling here. I guess I just think that normally I'm a pretty strong person and now I just find myself with tears most of the time. I don't want my daughters and husband to see any of those. Well I guess I've said enough and probably haven't made much sense.