I haven't been posting very often and I'm not sure why. Since the walk ended it's almost like I feel as if treatment ended again, is that bizarre or what?? I just feel very depressed. Brian wanted the stuff yesterday and I dragged my feet on it because I just wanted to avoid anything that smacked of cancer. I thought maybe it was that I was tired, it's been a crazy couple of months with lot's of pressure from family life. But I sleep more now then I ever did before I had cancer yet I never feel rested. I feel like I'm NEVER relaxed or fully satisfied if that makes any sense. I don't know how to explain it. Has anyone else had any of these feelings that I can't seem to put words to?

SCC Left Mandible. Jaw replaced with bone from leg. Neck disection, 37 radiation treatments. Recurrence 8-28-07, stage 2, tongue. One third of tongue removed 10-4-07. 5-23-08 chemo started for tumor behind swallowing passage, Our good friend and much loved OCF member Minnie has been lost to the disease (RIP 10-29-08). We will all miss her greatly.