Oh I don't mean to sound like a cry baby. I am honestly wanting some input. I have tried everything that I can possibly think of so I thought I would reach out to all of you for some highlights. I mean there are so many things out there that I don't know about. One post could make all the difference in the world for me. I am at the point now where I will try anything just to continue my path to recover as much and as best that I can. I just refuse to accept some things...I feel that there is a way to do almost anything if you put your mind and heart into it. I have been fighting so long that I would not know how to spend a day with out it. It sure would be nice tho to try. I have so much pain in my jaaw area, that Morphine isn't doing a thing for it. It is just a constant throbbing. It never stops. When I try to stretch my mouth open,,Tears just flow...It hurts so bad, but I still do the exercises even tho it has gotten me nowhere....My talking is of course affected by this because I cannot open my mouth wide enough to pronounce the words..I wish I could come on here and tell you how wonderful everything was,,brag about just being alive,,,,but being alive isn't living...I am DAMM PROUD to be ALIVE..I am also honest enough to say that I want more than this. I know that I will never ever be who and what I once was. But I can try to get as close as I can to a better quality of life. That is what I am striving for.....The Best that I can be....Thank you for helping, listening, caring and sharing...Miss Vicki