Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) Joined: Dec 2003 Posts: 2,606 Likes: 2 | Spade,
Waste no more time and worry and get the thing biopsied. Like Gary says, it ain't cancer until the can prove it to you. Peace of mind is too important to run a thousand scenarios over and over in your mind.
We have all done what you are doing and most likely more often and for a longer period of time. I remember clearly when the doctor told me what my pathology report said. I couldn't believe it and months later I am still terrified, although tolerating everything. Your training and education give you an extreme advantage over the rest of us because you already know more than what we have had to learn. However, the same thing gives you a disadvantage because your knowledge can propogate more fear.
Have it checked out and take each step as it comes. You can't run the race if all you see is the finish line.
I know how difficult this must be for you. We are here if you need anything.
Ed
SCC Stage IV, BOT, T2N2bM0 Cisplatin/5FU x 3, 40 days radiation Diagnosis 07/21/03 tx completed 10/08/03 Post Radiation Lower Motor Neuron Syndrome 3/08. Cervical Spinal Stenosis 01/11 Cervical Myelitis 09/12 Thoracic Paraplegia 10/12 Dysautonomia 11/12 Hospice care 09/12-01/13. COPD 01/14 Intermittent CHF 6/15 Feeding tube NPO 03/16 VFI 12/2016 ORN 12/2017 Cardiac Event 06/2018 Bilateral VFI 01/2021 Thoracotomy Bilobectomy 01/2022 Bilateral VFI 05/2022 Total Laryngectomy 01/2023
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