Thank You Nelie
It's been a heck of a ride. Not wanting treatment at the beginning (to horrific). Then to be convinced to get it. Then fight to get it. Then give up hope because you can't get it. Then start preparing for the end. Then get a phone call saying someone will help you, after having told many, and truely convinced myself, that I had exausted all possibilities and that there would no help. I may need a shrink before it's over. My favorite smilie "eek" is a good visual of what I look like!