Amanda, here is a hugh hug from me [age 65] to you and some grandmotherly advice- trust what the Docs are telling you-if you have confidence in them- and start thinking about going to Medical School. With your inquisitive mind, you would be a good doctor Go get your hair and nails done and buy a fun outfit and get back to being 19 yrs. old! We'll be here if you need us. Amy