Ian,

If the biopsy comes back negative...you have to move on and if you can't, you need to get a professional to help you! You will drive yourself crazy! I am speaking from experience. I used to be this way(not the extent you are!) but bad enough that I knew I had to stop with the medical books & the computer always looking up symptoms!I was convinced I had every illness I read about. It was an anxiety thing I have since gotten help with. I had to re-program myself.You will celebrate and then move on or you WILL go insane.Ask the doctors office to call you if they have someone that cancels, so they can see you sooner.If everything is okay, FORGET about it.It IS destroying your life, thats whats sad. frown Try to go a hour without thinking about it and then try 2. Its hard at first but can be done.Good luck & I hope you find something out soon!God bless!MAureen

maureen (friend to Rod SCC tonsil diag. Mar 04 stage 4 -concurrent rad. & chemo) Finished tx July 04