I have tried some therapy but hasn't really helped, Ive tried lots of mindfulness exercises and breathing butI'm still a mess. Having this looming over me, not working, feeling helpless and hopeless are tough issues to work out in therapy, what I need to do is make progress and get a grasp on what's happening to my body. Thanks for the response and Im sorry to hear that about your husband. I'm guessing he's on a feeding tube, Ive had the esophagus dilated twice in the last year and truisms setting in so I may get to that point too.