Sorry to hear that. My doc upped my oxy to 10 so not sure if that is a possibility for you. I took a notepad and wrote backwards from 30 to 1 as a countdown clock. It’s been helpful to rip off a page for each treatment. It’s awful and hard to take it one day at a time - I’ve even been telling myself “one meal at a time” - which is admittedly the best advice but the toughest to follow. My wife keeps repeating to me that this is temporary, which has been helpful because although I understand that fact intellectually I often “forget it” emotionally. Intellectually, I also know that rads are helping me fight the disease, but my emotional brain views it as pure torture. That’s another struggle. Prayers for you and your husband. This forum has been so helpful to me as oral cancer was something I’d never heard of before being diagnosed.