FYI - I'm not only new to this site, but also new to how to navigate forums. Just in case, I posted a reply following Crystal's below. Hopefully you find it, and more importantly, I hope that you find it helpful in your decision-making process. As I mentioned, stay positive. I know that sometimes it will be hard, and you'll get emotional about the "why me?" and "can I do this?" but when those moments come, remember your babies and that you're still alive. Hug and kiss them as much as possible. I feel so blessed and grateful every morning that I wake up and get to see my "babies." They are my ultimate inspiration and motivation to stay positive and keep fighting this beast. (Ugh...hate cancer!)