GG, the very best thing you can do is to focus on what is within your control. Focus on your intake which is what plays the biggest factor in how you will do with your treatments. Worrying about the "what ifs" will not ever do anything beneficial for anyone. All it does is cause unneeded stress and make this whole thing more difficult. By putting all that energy into focusing on your intake, it will help make it easier for you to get thru this. For most of us, rads were not easy at all and it took everything we had to push ourselves to take in what we could. I didnt do so well and suffered so much more than if I had met my daily minimum intake numbers. Every single day from right now thru the first year post rads (at the very least) you should take in a minimum of 2500 calories and 48-64 oz of water. If you can push yourself to take in a little more like 3000 calories every day, it will help make it easier on you. You are ahead of the game by having us in your corner cheering you on. We will do our best to help you with all kinds of tips and ways to make this battle as easy as possible. Stick with us and you will be ok

Best wishes with your continued recovery from surgery.