Next update, sorry dont know where to post this. Will be starting Rads in mid June, and getting everything setup for it beginning June 2nd. Dont know what or how I will take it, as it seems that stress from all this is causing some kind of funky fatigue. I have absolutely no energy, yet I cant sleep. Even taking something for sleep doesnt help, which is why this is being typed out at 1:12 am. Cancer team seems nice and well prepared for me, which is good...as my ENT, is a former miltary doc, and has the bedside manner of a table lamp. Anyway, i will keep you posted. Thanks again for all your help, I dont know what I would have done without this forum.

My family, is very supportive and very over the top.."you are going to be fine, you got this!, Piece of cake!, Wont be so bad, what are you so worried about " attitude, that it is beginning to drive me nuts. Ive heard , how are you, are you ok, ...like a couple of dozen times a day, from family and strangers. I know everyone means well, but im still wrapping my head around the whole Cancer thing. It has been 1 month as of today. Biopsy, diagnosis, 2 surgeries, pain, no eating, no sleep, constipation, nausea, loss of appetite,crazy freaking saliva, with a myriad of doctor visits and schedules, poking and prodding, im losing my mind. WHEW!!!! Well, enough venting for me, lol. Sorry to put all this out there, but for the life of me, I cant seem to say this out loud to the family, I dont want them to feel bad or unappreciated...and it seems like everyone here has been through it all and so much more, that it makes me feel bad to even attempt a comparison. Thanks for letting me ramble. Good luck everyone! G'night.