Fear is with all of us to some degree or other. I worry, too about my son and every little thing that comes up health wise but I know he's taking care of himself and I try to keep those "what-ifs" under control and not let him see my concern. The fear touches all members of our family. Once when My son's daughter went to the doctor for a sore on her lip, it wasn't until later when everything was ok that I realized how anxious Paul had been about his daughter. I think cancer has given us a new closeness, a new appreciation of all the good things in life. The very smallest of things are cause for celebrations, hugs and "I love you"'s. Madelaine - I see by your signature that you have been "married to a wonderful man for 42 years". And that is something really big to celebrate. Not many of us have had that kind of love. Tell him every chance you get what he means to you. Enjoy the "Now", and each moment to the fullest! Now go give that wonderful man a hug. :-)