I used to feel the same way. After finishing radiation and chemo, I had such a fear of having a recurrence I wouldnt even open a post having anything to do with a recurrence. Even with being so superstitious it still happened to me. It took a while for it to sink in, but I finally realized there was nothing I could do to prevent a recurrence from happening. The only proactive action I could do was to try having the best diet I could and not waste my precious time worrying "what if...".

Our forum does have quite a few members who have had recurrences. I think this is due to those members being more active here than some members who have had OC once and been able to regain their pre-cancer life easier. This topic has come up a few times over the years. I find that by helping others it helps me to better deal with the hand I was dealt. Being active on the forum helps me to keep my mind off my own issues.

Just know we are all in this together. Nobody understands how brutal this disease and its treatments are as much as fellow patients and caregivers who have seen this first hand. We understand all the emotions and ups and downs patients and caregivers go thru. OC is a horrendous disease! Being part of this great group of people means we get you and its ok to vent. We all laugh and cry right along with each other. Many lifelong friendships have been formed thru these posts. This group of people are a family. Glad you are here with us