Pattilynn, I know how you feel. I can eat soft foods but not socially because of difficulties I experience. I wasn't told I wouldn't be able to eat properly after treatment so it has filtered through my consciousness gradually and now a year later I feel I have just about accepted it. There are times it hits me harder such as a recent invitation to a barbecue, an important event I will have to attend. I'll have to avoid the food! A barbecue is like my worst case scenario.

Your situation is far worse but I can well imagine how hard it must be. Now that you are online, you should be able to meet up with other people with the same issues.

I wish you well and hope we hear a lot more from you:)