Hi Lauren - I didn't smoke either, but I have been known to drink a beer or two (but usually only two). I wasn't in my thirties when I was diagnosed, but if you're HPV positive we probably have much in common.

I suppose I share your wondering "what's next", but in all honesty I don't think about it much. Life has pretty much returned to normal except that food still doesn't taste good yet and I still have bouts of dry sinuses and dry mouth. There are whole days that go by now, where I don't even think that once I had cancer, and went through that awful treatment. I suppose if I start to get symptoms of something then I will start thinking about it more, but right now, life is busy so my days are full of living.

One of our long term survivors, who is no longer with us, username: Bart, taught me early on after joining OCF that worrying about this stuff is really counter-productive and a waste of time, not to mention that doing it will make you go bat@#$% crazy. I listened to his wisdom and adopted that way of thinking and living as a survivor has been all the easier because of it. It will be what it will be, nothing we can do about it, worrying about it won't help. May his soul rest in peace.

I hope you find who you are looking for. But, if you don't, there are plenty of us older survivors who share your thoughts and are willing to be your friend.

take care,
Tony