Hi everyone,I am new here and want to introduce myself.My name is Deborah and I am married {21 years] and have a 10yr.old son.We found out my husband has cancer stage IV.Right tonsil primary with lymph node involvement in both sides.He is getting radiation and chemo at the Cleveland Clinic.He just finished his last chemo and has 9 more radiation treatments.Right now he is in the hospital and very sick.He has not had any thing to eat or drink in weeks.They are giving him fluids thru IV now.They have tried to put in a Core pak but he vomits it out and they say they can't put in a Peg right now because his white blood cell count is very low from the chemo.He can't talk because his throat and mouth hurts so much and he chokes on the excessive mucus.He is so weak....My son and I are so scared.We both cry a lot because we are so worried we will lose him.It breaks my heart to see him like this and not be able to do anything to help him.Can he beat this? The doctors will not let him come home until his cell count goes up and they get a Peg put in and this makes him crazy.I am so scared I am going to lose him.My whole life feels like a bad dream right now and I feel like I am in a fog.Tears are always right under the surface and I try to keep myself together for my son's sake.The hospital is 50 miles away from our home and that makes everything even harder.Thank you all for listening and God Bless all of you that are going thru this or have gone thru it.