Hello all:

I am 50 years old
I have 4 kids, ranging from 19 years old down to 8.
I have never smoked
I do not drink, ever.
I live a very clean healthy life.

Diagnosis yesterday - on a beautiful snowy day, that this thing under my tongue is in fact cancer.

I instantly went into my normal mode of - "ok, how do I fix this one".
Turns out I am not in control.

Going for CT scan tonight. Surgery next week.

1) wish I had more life insurance.
2) wish I had more $$ to leave my family.

So if I survive - am I professionally at a disadvantage?
Will I go into surgery assuming the doc will take just the thing that is the size of a dime and come out missing my tongue?

Talked to my kids last night - unquestionably the hardest thing I have ever done. Before last night I was invincible.. superman.

I am not afraid....
I am worried and sad for the other people in my life who count on me for so much.

So I don't know if this is what the forum is for. But there you have it.

for now.
Scott