A few weeks after my dad passed away I was having an exceptionally hard time with missing him. He used to take my face in his hands and rub his beard stubble on my face. I told my husband I just wanted to feel his beard on my face one more time. That night I had a dream. I was in a store shopping and turned around to find my dad behind me. I said "Daddy, what are you doing here, you died?" He took my face in his hands, rubbed his stubble on my face and said "just giving you your one more time!" I woke up sobbing, then realized my face felt prickly and hot where he had rubbed in my dream. Just crazy but filled me with peace.
Kathy


Kathy wife/caregiver to:
Kevin age:53
Dx 7/15/11
HPV16+ SCC Stage IV BOT/R
Non smoker, casual drinker
7/27/11 Cistplatin, taxotere,5FU 2/3week sessions, followed by IMRT 125cgy x 60 (2x daily) w/Erbitux weekly. Last rad 10/26/11. Last Erbitux 10/27/11
PEG placed 9/1/11 Removed 11/8/11
Clear PET 10/12 and 10/13 and ct in 6/14