Hi Sandy:
Welcome to a new family of kindred spirits who actually understand what you're going through as we are all doing the same. Some are farther along in the journey, but we all know that nagging feeling in the back of the head.

If you've read much on the website you've already seen what to do about it; go find something to do that will occupy your mind in a positive way. For me, there are a lot of things that work. I build and fly model airplanes. I have several under construction. Working on a plane always takes the mind to a new place.

I also love to play bridge, nothing focuses the mind like trying to remember if my club nine will win the next trick because the ten through the ace have already been played.

Yesterday, the walls started closing in a little, so I got away from the walls by just going for a walk. It was beautiful outside, about 70 degrees, sunny, light wind. Just to smell the fresh air and listen to children playing in a neighbor's yard will cheer you up. There's a red labrador that lives halfway through my walk. He always gets a scratch and a rub, and half the time he joins me for the rest of the walk.

And though this doesn't work for everybody, I find getting on this website and reading about other people's cancer and trying to offer them some words of hope to be therapeutic. I always feel better after doing that.

Still, at least once every day that little feeling will be back there letting me know, I'm still here. That's okay; all I have to worry about today ... is today.

So, get started making your list of escapes. Write it down on paper and attach it to your front door. When the worrying starts, walk to the front door, pick one ... and do it, right then.

Stick with this group Sandy, we will all get through this together.

Tony