Tessa,
Certainly sounds like you are getting hit hard with challenges right now. Just remember that, even though things can look bleak now, they will likely get better.

My husband was very stubborn about insisting on the Ethyol injections, even when they made him sick. I think he is glad, almost two years out from treatment, that he stuck with them. His doctors tell hem that he has more saliva than their patients that didn't take Eythyol. He feels like he has bad dry-mouth, but guess it can be worse.

Anyway, don't be afraid to give your friends concrete ways they can help you. They will be happy for the opportunity and you need the support.

Best to you,
Anita