Thanks Mark and Cathy for responding so quickly. I am single, never been married, no kids. I also care for my 84 yr old mother who lives with me. She fell 2 weeks ago and fractured her hip and doctors also said she needed a pacemaker due to her irregular heartbeat. She is still in a hospital 40 miles from me in eastern PA. Will be sending her to a rehab in the next week or 2. So basically you can say I am alone in going through all this cancer treatment stuff. I have friends that call but they don't know what to say when they find me upset on the other end of the phone. I consider myself a strong person but don't seem so strong right now. Thank you for reading my message and taking an interest in helping.