Hello Scott
You are at the start of a very scarey journey, so being afraid is absolutely normal...we have all been there.
Tell us a little more about your situation ,I guarantee one of us can relate , help with questions etc.
Just know there is light at the end of this tunnel
long though it may be!
Hang in, do your research on the site, there is a ton of information on here and many willing ears to help you through.
Take care
Marica