To Tube or Not to Tube... that is the question. Whether it is nobler in the mind to suffer....

I went into this wanting a PEG as a precaution. My team was against it so no PEG. I saw my RO last Thursday and I'm seeing him tomorrow. He is concerned about my weight. I'm in chemo as I write this getting juiced up for the Cisplatin. I lost 5 lbs the last week. Over 10 since March 14th.

I'm at the halfway point Wednesday! YAY! BUT.... I hit the wall yesterday. We were home for the weekend. Saturday wasn't too bad. My throat is shot and I was feeling rough but it was good to be home, run errands and do "normal" things. The weekends are an oasis in this sea of treatments and appointments. Anyway... I woke up Sunday feeling pretty rough. I went to take my meds and one of the pills got caught in the back of my throat. I went into the kitchen and tried to cough it up and promptly tossed my cookies! That was the first time that has happened. I felt awful the rest of the day....

So... back to now... I drank as much as I could but still felt pretty bad. I almost have a bag of fluid in me and they gave me Emend for the 'yuck". As far as the PEG? I'll listen to my team and deal with what I have to deal with. My swallow has been an issue since the neck dissection and I'm going to need therapy in order to get it back fully. Taking meds is becoming increasingly difficult too.. we'll see.

Positive thoughts and prayers

"T"