I know the terror you are going through. That gut clenching cold sweat fear that sends your mind into overdrive. For me, I then start to have symptoms that were not there before! I hear that level of fear and it is great that you posted. I hope that writing it all down helped relieve some of the anxiety.

I hate that your medical system would stop you from getting checked. That, to me, is just SO WRONG. Regardless, we can't change history and we are looking forward to great clean results from your appointments later this month.

Be careful of that mind of yours! Once the anxiety gets ramped up your mind can and will play all kinds of tricks on you!! Try to stay busy, enjoy each day, and use relaxation exercises.

Hugs, and feel free to post.

Donna