Recently everything, well almost everything, in my life has returned to normal. I'm even doing theater again and one of my all time favorite bands is playing a show locally (which in and of itself is serendipitous considering if you knew the band they should have come here while I was down and out, it's almost like they waited) and I'm doing amazing at my job. But I have these catastrophic moments of impending doom and I feel like how far can I go back into life before something pulls the plug like last time. And part of me feels like I'm trying to do everything all at once because I know if it ever comes back my life will be shutdown, if not for a substantial amount of time, forever.
I didn't think it would be this hard to cope or that I'd need to cope as my life turned back into what it once was