It's been 9 months today since Matthew passed.
I haven't been able to decorate the house. No lights. No tree. No sign that Christmas is next week to be seen.
My 14 year old doesn't deserve to have a Christmas as bleak as I feel inside. So, today I went shopping for some extra special gifts for him. Upon returning to the office I found myself in tears. I loved shopping with my husband. I loved this season for the joy on his face when the kids would get what he chose for them.
Cherish the little things, for they are what is truly important.

CG to my husband, Matt. Dx June 2009 Stage IV Oropharengeal SCC right tonsil primary with distant metastases. Rad to neck- Surgeries to lungs- Every avail chemo - ran out of options Jan 2012, called for hospice help Feb 2012, at rest March 19, 2012.