Walt, you are among friends here. Its ok to be afraid, to vent, rant and blow off steam. We will listen and do our best to come up with tips and ideas to encourage you.

So sorry you are going thru so much!!!!

Wondering if you are able to check out working with a therapist. That may help you to find a way to consider having a promising future even if you do face some limitations.

I know all too well how difficult it is living with a handicap. Mine is very visible. I have become severely disfigured due to going thru oral cancer 3 times, the last one was what did me in. Life is much different for me than from how I lived prior to getting cancer. To be honest with you, in alot of ways my life is much more meaningful now. I spend a couple hours a day helping others which also helps me by taking my mind off my own problems. Ive learned to adapt to my issues and live with them. Eventually you will adapt also. I know its not easy but you can adjust to your new life and still make a decent life for yourself.

Hang in there Walt!!!!