I was diagnosed with SCC on Sept 19, 2012. Partial glossectomy done and modified radical neck dissection, left side. One lymph node involved over 3cm. BOT diagnosed on October 8, 2012. I begin rad 5x weekly for 7 weeks, Nov.12. Three doses of cisplatin -beginning, middle, end. Iv hydration therapy 3x to start and then 5or 7 x week. Port and Gtube to be installed Nov.8. I know everyone has been through the rad with the mask, but I am terrified I am not going to be able to get through it. I've never been claustrophobic, but making that mask and it tightening around my throat was awful. I have asked for some meds to relax and they have prescribed ativan. I have never taken any medications so I have no idea if it will work or not. I go for my verification simulation on Nov.9 and will try it then. I'm sorry to be so whiney, but I am scared. I wake up at night now due to nightmares dreaming that I can't breathe and that I am tied down. Have been doing meditation and yoga to no avail. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. It was Stage III. I also have a phenomenal support system with my husband, children, family and friends. I just turned 60.