Now that it has been 4 weeks since the surgery we are ready to begin rad/chemo on Monday 10/1. I made it through having the mask and mouth piece made but not sure how it will be having to wear that mask for 20 mins. Trying to stay clam and focus on anything other than what is going on but still will need the Xanax to get through it. Getting nervous about what the side effects to both are going to be too. My daughter (and care giver) and I have made a few liquid meals to see what taste good (even though I'm sure that will change)Turned pot roast with carrots into a soup and put it in the freezer. Have to say, it was pretty good. MO recommended the PEG so that goes in next week too. I'm trying to stay positive and hoping for the best. It's just a lot to taken in. MO said they will do 7 doses over 7 weeks instead of the 3 big bags to try and reduce the severity of the side effects but still looking at nausea, lose of appetite and of course hair lose. The only good thing is I have a few extra pounds to spare so it won't be a huge problem if I loose the expected 15 - 20 lbs. Just don't want to loose much more than that. Here's hoping for the best!