Thanks so much. I got off pretty easy the first 2 times I had cancer. I just can't believe that 12 years later here I am. I have had a rough year - my mother died in April and and I had a failed fertility cycle (after years of failed fertility cycles and a few miscarriages) among other things. Thanks Cheryld for letting me know that about your recovery, that is good to hear. My mom had a trach for awhile so I know all too well about it. I guess if anything this is a wake up call to start taking care of myself after I get through all this. Waiting really is the worst. Thank you all again.