Thank you, Kathy! You said it right... it is so hard to accept the defeat. I feel it for myself and I feel it for my mom. She hated accepting that the cancer she had fought most of her adult life was finally winning. To lose after all that is so disappointing. And what she went through in her last weeks was humbling and at times demeaning. Being aware enough to know you are wearing adult diapers (before she was catheterized) and having your daughter and husband wash your private areas was very hard for her. On top of having to accept that you are going to die within a matter of weeks was emotionally devastating... for her and for us.
I am trying to come to grips with a reality without her and seeking as much information as I can get to understand what happens to our relationship with her now.
Everyone's support here has been amazing. I am so grateful for finding such great people. You are all champions.