Thanks again everyone, your words help.

Im going to make an honest effort to find someone to talk to counselor wise. My friends are doing a good job of keeping me doing stuff and staying interested in school, but at night and the morning Im having trouble. Things are going better in the gym though, strength is returning and such. I dont feel defeated or like giving up the fight by any means, its just the dam un-motivated crap. Im going to take this summer off from school and hopefully that will help straighten me out some. My Mom has been right by my side through all of this , Im wondering if she should go with me to counseling or should she go on her own ?
I hated seeing her suffer through all this stuff with me, plus she takes care of my grandma who is slowly succumbing to dementia. I feel really bad that I cant make her life easier right now, she does so much and I really want to make things easier for her.

thanks again for your time,
-Jody