thanks so much, it means more than you know. Im going to try to find a professional to talk to about the depression. Like klo's "Alex" being so surrounded with the hard sciences and math, Im mostly under the impression that psychology cant help me. But Im feeling that any answer is better than none at this point. Radiation starts next thursday, staples came out today and my Doc said that my pathology report mentioned none of the latest tumor branching out beyond the node that was removed. Hopefully, as Cherlyd said...the cancer has been now finally removed. Im changing my diet and bought a juicer so hopefully this will be the end of this crap.

I'm very grateful that you all took time to post in my thread, thank you. As isolated in this as I feel right now, I feel better when I see other people say "yes, this is the same way it happened to me"

Thanks, Jody