Vent away. We are here for both of you. It does suck and you have every right to ask why and be angry. It would not be normal if you didn't feel this way.
When the raging passes you will both buckle your seatbelts and get on with the ride again. YOU can do this. Both of you.
Please keep us informed and know we are here to help you through. Vent, yell, cry...we are here.
Love to you both,
Kathy

Kathy wife/caregiver to:
Kevin age:53
Dx 7/15/11
HPV16+ SCC Stage IV BOT/R
Non smoker, casual drinker
7/27/11 Cistplatin, taxotere,5FU 2/3week sessions, followed by IMRT 125cgy x 60 (2x daily) w/Erbitux weekly. Last rad 10/26/11. Last Erbitux 10/27/11
PEG placed 9/1/11 Removed 11/8/11
Clear PET 10/12 and 10/13 and ct in 6/14