Rhart,

In all seriousness, if I can be serious that is, we understand brotha. What helped me out was looking at the signatures of the other members of these forums and seeing what they've been through with this disease and knowing that they are still here and posting. In the first three posts on your thread here you have three stage IV survivors answering your question and addressing your fears. Two of those survivors have faced recurrences and are still alive and counting their blessings to be alive.

The first two posters happen to be the ones that helped me see that there was life to be lived no matter what the outcome I faced and were examples to me in my darkest hours. What you should see by those signatures is hope.

I'm a four year survivor my friend and I lost most of my face, half my tongue, my livelihood and really everything I thought that mattered in life with the exception of my family, yet here I am four years later thanking my lucky stars for every minute I have on this planet.

It's going to be OK my friend, you now have people on these forums that can relate to the experience you've gone through and the feelings and trauma caused by it. We should be examples of hope. Now if you need chemical assistance or counseling to help you deal with some of those emotional issues, do whatever you need to do brotha, just know we understand and accept.

Personally I'd say at least try the brownies though, live a little


Eric