Hello Roger!

I remember those feelings of anxiety after treatment...will I live? Will it comeback? Will these side effects ever stop? What will my life be like if I live...it get's better Roger.

You're very fortunate to have found these forums as early as you have, it took me almost a year after being diagnosed to find this little oasis on the net filled with others that could relate to me. You're in good hands here my friend. I'm now about four years out of diagnosis and I can tell you, it get's better.

I wouldn't beat yourself up too much about the marijuana use it's VERY unlikely that it's what caused your cancer. If you are not using it now I would actually encourage it, just don't smoke it use a vaporizor instead. It's just going to help with the anxiety, depression and motivate you to eat while assisting in pain management.

Just have your medical team keep on top of any concerns you may have and stay vigilant, it's all you can do really so there's no reason to keep those feelings of anxiety, what will be will be you know?

My advice, grab a few cans of Ensure, put Pineapple Express in the DVD, take a few hits and watch the anxiety fade into giggles and the need for junk food.

Welcome aboard brotha, glad you found us!

Eric