Hi Laura, boy those words you have written there take me way back. We were once where you are and I remember getting ready to take that roller coaster ride. You will get through this, I promise you. At the time I could never imagine that I would be looking back on that moment thinking wow, we made it but we are. It's tough, I won't pretend it's not but you will get through it.

My best advise is to get your husband to eat as much as he can. He will lose it but put on what you can now so that it's something he has to lose. When my husband Steve was diagnosed he was a thin 66kg. He went as low as 51kg fully clothed during treatment. He's 181cm tall. He tolerated the radiation ok but wasn't a fan of the chemo at all. Steve had 3 lots of Cisplatin over the 7 week course of radiation. Steve also had a peg tube inserted. This was a godsend to us. Some people go without it but Steve had it. He hated it initially but eventually saw how useful it was. I do believe it was a major part of getting him through his treatment.

I wrote a blog called My Steve, on this forum, that you may find useful. I tried to record as many feelings as I could on how it was for a carer. How I felt and how our progress was. It helped me to cope with what we were going through. I'm very glad you found us here. The guys here are a godsend and will help you through this in every way they possibly can. Even if its just to vent and get some emotion out, then come here and do it. We've all been or are going through the same thing so we understand.

There are few of us Aussies on here as I'm sure you will find out. We were in NSW at the time of Steve's treatment. At the Mater hospital in Newcastle. If by some chance you are at this hospital you are in good hands. Keep us posted on how you are going and remember we are all here. We are all around the world so you will find someone on here most of the time.

Wendy