This post just makes me want to cry. Also makes rethink about trying for our fourth child. I have always wanted four. Our first one is in heaven. I keep thinking what if this crap comes back and I am expecting another one, what would I do. My RO and ENT did give us the go ahead. I would have to say, I would probably do the same thing this mother did. I may see if my RO could do Cyberknife or something, but I do not know if I would risk the baby's life. Such a strong mother to give her baby life and lose her's.